Holidayzzz

Every year the holidays are bound to come around at some point. As happy as they make me feel, I also get filled with a somber nostalgia longing for past memories and wishing the current year would look the same as then. I find myself comparing my body to the Christmas before that, comparing my grades, my relationships with friends, my happiness, my family and my overall life. This year was especially difficult to come to terms with, it's the last Christmas that I will be home on school vacation for. All the years going forward I'll be a working girl living a fully adult life.

I had to realize this cycle of living in the past isn't okay and comparing myself to my past self is me being my own worst enemy. There is beauty in moments that may not feel so beautiful and we often look back and wonder why we were being so hard on ourselves. It’s okay if life looks different, things are meant to change. Without change you would be in a rut of the mundane of life. You also would not be growing. You're meant to outgrow your surroundings, friendships, hobbies, boyfriends, girlfriends and even your jeans LOL.

Ever since high school when my family went through something a tad traumatic and life changing, holidays have always looked different. It's not the picture perfect scene it used to be, and that's okay. I get the chance to embrace new traditions and new ways of celebrating, because yes although things may undoubtedly look a lot different it is still a celebration because you have to be grateful for what you do still have.

This is all a reminder to go easy on yourself in the new year and only let positive energy surround you. Don’t compare yourself to past YOU, or anyone for that matter. :)