2023 is out, 2024 is in

Well, well, well. Quite possibly one of the most transformative years of my life has come to an end. Between soaking in every second of the last semester of college, to falling in love, to all sorts of memories made with home friends and college friends, to GRADUATING, to getting my first big girl job, realizing...this job isn't for me, switching said job to a BIG girl job in the city.

The new year is so bitter sweet to me. I used to hate it. I think it was the heavy drinking culture around what is suppose to be such a celebratory day ruined it for me. I realized as a young kid that adults would get sloppy on this day and it stressed me out to the point I hated when new years was approaching. As I am getting older I am re writing what this holiday means to me.

This year it means outgrowing friendships and things that used to serve me and was a better fit for me in different phases of life. I am done trying to hold onto friendships that do not care to ask how I am on a weekly basis but only text me twice a month to go to a club. I am done having drunken conversations with "friends" that only get deep when they have a sip of alchol in them after 12 AM. I am done venting to the wrong people then having my personal life be someone's gossip the next day. I am done promising myself I will complete all my tasks and then not doing them. I am done not making proper time for my family. I am done not having the energy to always take care of myself.

This year I want to level up. Not like every other year when you make goals and then by Jan 3rd you already forgot about them. But for real level up. I want to love myself unconditionally in my own skin, more than I already do. I want to thrive at work and grind so hard so I can set up a wonderful future for myself. I want to not care at ALL what anyone is doing or saying about me and my life. To be the most healthy version of me, I need to only focus on what is going to promote self love for future me.

In life you need multiple different of your cups filled to feel full and like your life has purpose. I have my family cup, my relationship cup, my friend cup, my work cup, my gym cup; But I need to fill my creative and helpful cup to feel full. I want to volunteer again like I used to a lot in college at the local farm. I want to feel like I am making a difference in a life.

Also in 2024, I am getting back to my passions. Which is this blog. I love this blog, it gives me an outlet and place to speak freely about pressing events or feelings in my life. I love the DMs I receive after a blog gets posted. Hearing how what I say helped someone or was able to be a relatable topic for someone feeling alone makes my day.

Welcome to the new era of Inside Out Emma navigating life after college and thriving in the corporate world as a young women in her early 20's. Woohooo!